Saturday, February 25, 2006
? 2/25/2006 10:31:00 PM
its been ages since i blogged.. and many many stuff happened... especially in dance
first he quarrelled with me.. i gt nth to say i lost wadever.. dance members was dere supporting me.. thanx guys..den after tt incident.. life in sch was never ncie especially whenever i happen to meet him in sch..he said i sux in his blog.. ok i admit i sux.. i admit i'm a damn complete failure as a chairman to u? or mayb to others? i dunno! wad ever it is.. i have no choice.. do u think i realli wish i sux? i feel nice and happy when u said i sux? easily said do u know the deep slash tt pierce thru my heart? not because i feel u r sumone impt to me.. but the friendship we used to have.. but i dun mind havin to lose u as a fren after wadever hurtful stuff u said.. ok matter close i dun wan tok abt dance anymore.... though i still love dance.. but i hate goin for dance practices every now and den...and when can these feelings stop??
weds(22/2) after miss lai called and tok to me.. discuss some stuff.. den after she hang up.. miss ji called me.. and she talked to me.. encourage me and telling me stuff.. telling me not to be afraid of goin to sch because of tt.. telling me not to hate dance cos of tt.. i knewi shuld not.. but i realli can't help.. i guess its not hate but just tired havin to face so much problem... den in the nite miss lai called again and chatted with me again for almost and hour plus... den she told me miss ji was worried for me.. she told me miss ji dotes on me.. and she wished i never drate goin for dance practices... thanxx miss ji and miss lai... u two r the best teacher i ever met =)
thru these incident.. i almost gave up on myself... i wanted so much a fren tt i can actualli pour my troubles to.. but not wanting them to carry my bruden as well... just tt i will definitely feel better if can find sumone who listen to me? understand me? but till todae.... not even one.. even the closest fren we have might just leave us one day.. might just drift apart frm me.. and i see no one supporting me.. i just dun get it.... i dun believe dere's such things called frens forever.. they r only mere verbal qoutes we used very often... take a look at our own primary sch autograph book we used to sign in and write in before we graduate.. how many hundrens of frens forever can we find and ask urself again how many of them r still in contact with u? they r seriously nth but shits we called tt.. though i'm goin veri happy with my frens now.. always crapping and laughing and joking and slacking.. i believe we will drift aprt one day but how i wishh tt particular day never comes =)
Save your last dance for me will you :)