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Saturday, March 22, 2008

? 3/22/2008 01:20:00 AM

after so many days... I still find it hard to believe that he's gone! Image of the cremation process keeps flowing through my mind. We gathered in a service hall (room 4) in mandai cremation, till today, i can still vividly remember the image of the coffin moving slowly towards the "hole" where it starts to burn. afterall, its life. the Death of a person is the birth of another. after all these days, thinking through, i feel like i just went through a GOLDEN CHRISTMAS. the wake feels like a golden christmas to me. where everyone of the family meets up, gathers but this time round in tears. To meet up in such situations, i rather not meet up! Knowing how close i am with peh gong, ppl will ask me are u ok?? i will reply - yah.. okay... although i'm stll trying to overcome the sadness deep down inside.

lesson leart- treasure every one around u. life may be short. we never know. till now onli did i realised how Not close i am with my family members. other then the few which include peh gong who has left me recently. =( one down. how many more?? i dunno. but till today... as for the adults, i am realli greatful to Divine jie jie (aunt). she my ever best aunt. =)someone who is as dear as my mum =).

Also, through this did i realised how little frens i have in my life. it doesn't matter as long i have one that is of a realli good quality. thanks ppl who was there with me all the while.

sometimes i really wonder, why my frens and their sisters can get along so well, but me and my sis just can't seem to work! it sucks at times! after 18 years... i still CANNOT! i admire my frens who receives love form their sisters/brothers.

not having jing ying(best sister) by my side is super terrible! how can she?! how can u?!?! bear to leave me alone in singapore for so so so so so so so long!! i so super miss u can!

receiving calls from frens once in a while to ask how am i doing.... i feel to warm =) thanks babay! and of cos RYNER!!! (super surprised) when u called me on thrus!! miss u guys too!!!

meeting up with frens once in a while is also great! - thanks siew min and ting xin! my ever ever ever close frens!! love u guys too!

from now onwards as i end my post, i will have peh gong in a corner of my heart! at the same time pray that he lives happyily in the other world =)

ps-showered with lots of love from LZX! NAT HO!

Save your last dance for me will you :)